So the other day I was looking up other blogs about mommies whose baby has gone to soon and I came across this one called herownpace.blogspot.com. She has a sign on her blog that says "It is said that everyone heals at their own pace. This is my pace" Now I have thought a lot about the saying time heals everything but when I read this it really hit me. I have been getting a lot of comments from people telling me that I needed to start moving on and that I needed to stop being sad about Brynn being gone. I was even told over memorial weekend that I was to go to the cemetery and tell Brynn that I was no longer going to be sad about her being gone and that I was going to move on with my life. Needless to say I am so sick of people who have never been through this telling me to get over my daughter. I agree I need to find something that brings me joy and something that can help my heart mend but the truth is I will never be the same person I was before all of this. I know this and my husband is finally starting to understand that this is taking time and is doing his best to help me in every way he can.
We want a family more than anything in the world and it is driving us crazy that we still are not pregnant. I have started back on birth control. I really feel that right now at this point I may have a little bit of a hormonal imbalance going on. So we're hoping that after 3-6 months that what ever is going on has corrected its self. Also in the mean time of the waiting game we have adopted ourself a little pit bull named Chelby. She has been a good thing for me and for Devon. We really love her and in a way she is helping me deal with my sadness. I know Chelby is just a dog and that there is no way she could ever fully fix the hurt that I have from Brynn going to soon but for now she is giving me something to look forward to. 
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