Break down in the Drs office

Hey there sweet little one,

So I have a lot to share with you! First, we had our first Drs appointment yesterday and I think I found the Dr we are going to go to for this pregnancy. He is a really nice guy and super smart. Everyone that I have talked to so far has said amazing things about him. He took the time to answer all of my questions and made me feel really good about everything. Before I met with him though I was getting my blood pressure taken and questions asked by his nurse. She started asking me if this was my first pregnancy. I knew they would ask me questions but what I wasn't prepared for was how I ended up reacting. I had a complete break down crying my eyes out as I told what had happened to you and then I realized how scared I truly am about this pregnancy. Don't get me wrong I am happy about it but at the same time super worried. My Dr did ask me more questions in what happened and I answered them the best that I could. He told me that what happened with you tends to be a fluke thing, I have been told that before but in my mind I keep asking what will keep it from happening again? I know I just need to have faith that everything will be fine with this little one. He did tell me something new about it, he said generally when the cord starts doing what it did with you it starts happening about 2 weeks before something happens. So he is going to start doing NST starting at 30 weeks. That makes me feel really good.
The second thing is that your Dad and I are looking into buying a home right now. We've looked at several homes and we have one that we really like. We're just praying know that we can get approved for a loan.

Well sweet little Brynn I love you so much! and miss you more and more everyday.

Love mommy

Trying to choose a Dr

Hey my sweet little one,

Happy 9 month Heavenly Birthday Brynn! Wow I can not believe that it's been 9 months today. Oh how time has gone by so fast. It makes my heart hurt knowing its been that long.

So for the past week I have been trying to decide on what Dr I wanted to go to for your little brother or sister. I am really torn. There is 2 Drs that are new to the valley and I have heard really good things about both of them. I have also been trying to rack my brain for questions to ask them and so far I have 2. I guess the biggest thing is I want to go in and tell them everything that happened to you and see what they say, see what they will do different to help this one.



I have been getting really nervous the last couple days. Part of it is wanting everything to go good this time and the other part is knowing that November is coming and its coming fast. I really don't want a year to come. When I start thinking about it my heart starts beating fast and I feel like I can't breath. I miss you so much.

I love you Brynn. Miss you so much today and everyday.

Love Mommy

Big Sister

Hey Sweet little one!

Guess what your going to be a big sister!! We found out on July 29th. We're not very far along but still your Dad and I are very excited about it. That puts your baby brother or sister due April 6, 2011 which seems like forever away! Your Dad has a feeling that its a boy but I am really hoping that we get another girl. Either way we will be excited for whatever we get. I told your cousin Jaxson that we were going to have another baby and he asked me if it was a real baby or a toy baby. Then he asked me if it was a boy or girl. Then later that night he told his mom that he wants me to have 2 babies, a boy one and a girl then that way Devon can have the boy and I can have the girl. I couldn't stop laughing when I was told that. He really cracks me up. So today is Grandma Debbies birthday and Uncle Mitch is now in New Mexico. So there has been a lot going on around here. But we're loving it and missing you so much everyday. Love you my sweet little one. Love

Mommy