Trying to choose a Dr

Hey my sweet little one,

Happy 9 month Heavenly Birthday Brynn! Wow I can not believe that it's been 9 months today. Oh how time has gone by so fast. It makes my heart hurt knowing its been that long.

So for the past week I have been trying to decide on what Dr I wanted to go to for your little brother or sister. I am really torn. There is 2 Drs that are new to the valley and I have heard really good things about both of them. I have also been trying to rack my brain for questions to ask them and so far I have 2. I guess the biggest thing is I want to go in and tell them everything that happened to you and see what they say, see what they will do different to help this one.



I have been getting really nervous the last couple days. Part of it is wanting everything to go good this time and the other part is knowing that November is coming and its coming fast. I really don't want a year to come. When I start thinking about it my heart starts beating fast and I feel like I can't breath. I miss you so much.

I love you Brynn. Miss you so much today and everyday.

Love Mommy