Wouldn't I

So for the past few days the thought 'wouldn't I have made a good mom'? Keeps running through my head and partly it from the fact that the other day Devon and I were out running some errands and we saw a girl who had to be maybe 17 years old who was about 7 or 8 months pregnant. Needless to say I was having one of those days where I was thinking why is it someone like that who is still a baby herself gets to have her baby? Would I not have been a good mom? Devon and I have been trying to get pregnant again and this week was suppose to be the week we found out. Well its 3 days now past my period start date and I still test negative. I never thought that sitting there watching a stupid little stick that can have a joyful result or crushing result could bring such heartache. Needless to say I am tired of crying. But for some new exciting news. Devon and I are moving!! I am so ready for a change but it means leaving my sister and her family :( not happy about that part. Its been really fun being close to them and having fun with her kids.